I am a person that responds well to a request that requires a list or something to check off and complete, so when Holley put the question to us about having a God-sized dream I immediately jumped at it. I truly wanted to have a God-sized dream. So I did alot of thinking to come up with one. Totally missing the word God-size. I prayed and stressed about it so that I could have one to share with everyone else. Nothing!
I pondered the question again surely there was one in me I just had to search harder so I could get started. I was sure I was the only one that didn't have that dream down. Pressure! Maybe I am too old to have a God-sized dream, but that would mean I should be gone from here and God still has me here for something!
Back to the drawing board. I prayed, but God seemed so silent. I would see people and wonder what is their God-sized dream. Wonder if they even considered a God-sized dream. I would go to bed with it on my mind and awaken to find that another night had passed and I still was not there.
Finally, as I awakened this morning it hit me! I had been trying to come up with my God-sized dream on my own. Not thinking or listening to the title and the beginning word GOD! I was at the heart of all the thoughts and prayers even though I was asking God to give me one. Hmmm God-size means that only God will be able to do it and I will be along for the ride. Perhaps He will use my hands, or maybe he will use my feet to travel for Him. Perhaps it will be the words He puts in my mouth to bring glory to His name, or maybe this blog will be a way to glorify the one who made me. Pressure off!! As if to confirm my new revelation I get the email that says LOTS of you are struggling and wanting to have that God-sized dream to head to! Wow not the only one! Once again that blows my mind.
I know that if nothing else comes from this little "project" I have taken yet another timid step toward the Lord admitting that I don't want to be in control and God has better plans. I need to wait on Him and not struggle to make something happen. Thank you Lord for the freedom that is in you.