I got a phone call that rocked my world and not in a good way. It was all I could do to breath let alone talk. Once we {my husband and I} hung up we cried on each others shoulders. I was so busy running scenarios through my mind that I didn't or couldn't even pray. How can we fix this? Who will be hurt the least? Perhaps this, no that won't work. What about this, no silly that isn't even in the realm of possibilities.
With all of this happening other things had already taken place, like finding out a loved one is very ill and on top of that a terrible flu has overtaken the family, and my sweet husband and I are struggling with bodies that are not cooperating with our minds. So encourage others, you have got to be kidding me!
Have you ever felt like this? I know at the time if surely feels as if you are the only one with such overwhelming struggles, at least it felt that way to me.
We put on our church masks and went to church not wanting to share all the heartache because if we opened our mouths to share tears would flow and no breath would come. I had begged God to speak and comfort my heart. {Seemed He was out of encouragement also.} For two long days I wasn't even able to pray just running ideas through my head why this was all happening and what I could do to solve these problems. God wasn't speaking and time was slipping away. However, {aren't you glad there is a however?} during the church service I was able to still my mind enough to listen to the words the Pastor was saying. He had printed the words to the scripture on the screen for us and right there in such bold print {perhaps it was regular print but to me it stood out with bells ringing and lights flashing} DON'T WORRY! The first time I saw it I was taken by surprise. But God knew I hadn't heard Him so the second scripture had those same words, DON'T WORRY! I sucked in my breath, God was speaking to my broken heart! He slowly lifted the burden I was carrying with his wonderful words bringing me back to trust that He is still, and always in control.
My situations haven't changed but I have! I know that God is working things out so that He will be glorified! What more can I ask? I am trusting Him to work this all out because He has promised in Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
{God NEVER breaks a promise He has made!}
Maybe I can encourage! If you have ever felt like your world is imploding you have a God that is able to see "over the fence" into tomorrow and He will never leave you or forsake you {another one of those promises}and He just loves to solve your problems. Trust Him, He never fails!
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Hi Maggie, What a beautifully written post!!!
ReplyDeleteIt is great encouragement....we all need to remember that no matter what GOD is there!
He knows what we need! God bless you sister dreamer!
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Maggie - thank you for sharing your heart and pain with us. I know that couldn't be easy. I can so relate to the church mask and wanting to slip in and out of church not being noticed. You know if someone speaks to you the flood gates of tears are bound to show up. You are still trying wrap your mind around everything. But I love that in your stillness God spoke directly to your heart. I know it's hard but keep praying. He wants to take this journey with you. He will never leave or forsake you.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for linking up today with Coffee for Your Heart, friend! XOXO
ReplyDeleteMaggie,
ReplyDeleteYes, I know exactly what you mean. My world fell apart last August, when my daughter had to have brain surgery. For nearly a month, we were out of state and for some of those days I could not pray, feeling overwhelmed and powerless. And I know that the prayers of others carried my family and I through that rough time. I learned the POWER of prayer, and now I pray for everyone and everything all the time! Thank you for sharing.